In the middle of the night I woke up feeling angry. Stuff goes round and round in my head.
Issues where at home she has undermined me. OK so take charge. I will just do as she asks or says. But then she does not want to be overtly in charge. I just do not know which way to jump.
Then today at work, I miss a important meeting with a client.
Did not check my calendar.
F***%$I@#
You know when things are going bad they seem to keep going bad.
The challenge for me is how to pull up and climb.
The difficulty I feel is not knowing whether I am the pilot, the co-pilot, the stewardess or the ground crew or a passenger or not even on the plane.
I don't know you, and have not read all of your posts. I don't need to though, to see you are lost. You need to live your life. If you want to serve your wife because she is the most precious person in your life, then do it. Do not wait for her to ask or say something so that you can do it. By now you should know what she wants and needs. Anticipate it. She should not work harder to come up with a list for you. She is not the master of your fantasies, but she is the woman you loved and married. You made a comitment to her; honor it.
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