The ache and desire

Ohh my balls ache.  ache ache.

My wife has gone away for a week and it is interesting how much harder it is to not masturbate.

Before she went we talked about resuming sex when she gets back after Easter.

The discussion points included
I had been much calmer this time (She used to give me sex because she did not like me grumpy)
I said I felt that if she gives me sex because she thinks I need release then that just makes me feel weak.
She had enjoyed not having sex.
She said that she might try through till june (5 months)

Wow. 

I am both excited and aprehensive at the same time.

I want to have sex.
I want to see if I can abstain.