Sunday, October 15, 2017
A concerned feeling
So yesterday I was really feeling quite concerned. Maybe I'd never get to orgasm again. Maybe once the three months is up I just wont be able to do it. Luckily on this occasion my wife was quite firm in discouraging me from masturbating and she said no way to sex.
Friday, October 13, 2017
A worried feeling
Coming up to 3 weeks of abstinence. The target is 3 months. So today driving to work and sitting in traffic I had this feeling of dread wash over me. I began to worry quite heavily maybe I will never get to orgasm again. Maybe by the end of the 3 months, It will never get hard again.
Wednesday, October 11, 2017
awake in the middle of the night
Woke up around 12:30am. Wide awake until about 2am.
I am assuming hormonal changes are driving this.
I am also wondering whether once everything settles down whether I should then try to limit getting aroused and hard. Just being sexless / plutonic. Seems to be what the wife is / wants.
I am assuming hormonal changes are driving this.
I am also wondering whether once everything settles down whether I should then try to limit getting aroused and hard. Just being sexless / plutonic. Seems to be what the wife is / wants.
Tuesday, October 10, 2017
Two weeks -ok
Two weeks in.
I suspect I am getting older because it's much more benign than last time.
I am pretty relaxed. Some days I do not get hard at all. Other days something - usually a good looking girl in a short skirt will get me rock hard.
I am wondering whether, once the initial pressure has stabilised, I should try to not even have an erection each day. Try for a kind of sexless existence.
Moodwise I have been pretty OK. I do though sometimes get depressed in the middle of the night. When this happens I get out of bed and go and sleep in the spare room
I suspect I am getting older because it's much more benign than last time.
I am pretty relaxed. Some days I do not get hard at all. Other days something - usually a good looking girl in a short skirt will get me rock hard.
I am wondering whether, once the initial pressure has stabilised, I should try to not even have an erection each day. Try for a kind of sexless existence.
Moodwise I have been pretty OK. I do though sometimes get depressed in the middle of the night. When this happens I get out of bed and go and sleep in the spare room
Monday, October 2, 2017
a little ache
So it's about a week and a day into abstinence and I'm sitting at work and noticed my balls are beginning to ache.
Sunday, October 1, 2017
a week into sexual abstinance
Actually feeling a bit more relaxed than I thought I would. Maybe old age.
There is a bit of a underlying depression that I am doing this because sex with my wife had become not only dull but also depressing because she obviously did not enjoy it. It seemed to me she hated it. She rarely got turned on. She did not engage in foreplay so really no chance of getting turned on.
The other reason for the depression is that maybe this state of abstinence will continue. The dichotomy is the abstinence it's self is kind of exciting. the sadness is that she is just not into me
There is a bit of a underlying depression that I am doing this because sex with my wife had become not only dull but also depressing because she obviously did not enjoy it. It seemed to me she hated it. She rarely got turned on. She did not engage in foreplay so really no chance of getting turned on.
The other reason for the depression is that maybe this state of abstinence will continue. The dichotomy is the abstinence it's self is kind of exciting. the sadness is that she is just not into me
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