emotions

I guess I go up and down.
I felt so alive yesterday
Then last night, she just had zero interest. 
No interest in sex and
No interest in me.

So I wonder what I should do.
Do I torture myself mentally and physically.  Like I would do anything for her but I don't think she wants it.  But it is I think too short term a view. 

Deep breath .

I think I need to keep on the sub thing for a while and try and do things for her and see if somehow that ignites her.