I obviously go in mood cycles.
I don't mind that there has been less physical stuff. We are in a resonant peak of busyness right now and I do know that she was thinking of me. When we were in bed last night she said "I would like to do something for / to you but I don't know what to do"
I think she had been working through kinky things that I had said I enjoyed but had run out of ideas. This worries me because I would like ..... but of course it is not supposed to be about what I would like. :)
I think (bit of a worry that) that her method of leadership is different to what I would like.
I also worry that at the moment we are a bit like the current Australian labour party with leadership issues. By that I mean, when I was the notional HOH, my wife "lead" by doing whatever she wanted anyway. But now that she is the HOH, she does not really know how to overtly lead.
I think it will take time.
I think she will take time to gain confidence to lead and to know that she can lead overtly without having to worry about a negative reaction from me.
But during this period there will be some frustration and from time to time a feeling of leaderlessness.
I think the challenge for me is to have patience and to just give support continuously.
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