Kinky Understanding

I am a Christian and by that I mean that I believe in God and regularly attend worship at my church. Now one of the core tenants of Christianity is love and understanding. However there is an area of my life that I think has made me more open to accepting others and that is recognising my kinky sexual side.

It would seem to me that for those without any sort of kink, the idea of a kink is something that not only they can't understand but that they are very suspicious of. This is not just Christians but anyone.

While we are on the subject of Christianity, there is a general view that Christians are more judgemental that most however I would have to say that in regard to the local Church that I attend, there is great tolerance and respect for people who are different. We have for example had members of our church march in the Gay & lesbian parades. Likewise we have members who totally oppose Gay sexuality. In the one church. We can coexist. And this is not a big church. Like 100-150 people. So we do have to get along.

So my feeling is that I have some kinks but it has made me much more understanding of others who have a kink. Any kink. Even if it is not my kink. What I do not think they understand is the way the kink is always a part of me.

My fetishes have been with me in some form or other since as early as I can remember. While they are not a totally consuming thing, they are always there. Like a mild addiction I would say. Sometimes able to be repressed, sometimes driving me to act on them. As a child one learns what is considered normal and from then on one hides the things that one knows is not normal.

So when I finally decide to try to manoeuvre my marriage to a wife lead marriage, I need to remember that I have spent years thinking about kinky stuff. Reading stuff. Latching onto comments made by others or in film. She hasn't. Her head space I imagine is very vanilla. I doubt if she even knows the term.

This is getting long. Enough for now.