Friday, November 22, 2013

whipping punishment and reward

I got grumpy last night.  Sulky.
As I write this, I have momentarily forgotten why.
In bed, still feeling moody but calmed down.
I said to her that she should punish me for being grumpy and she said OK get the cane.  I said you can use the electrical flex if you like and she said OK get that.
I switched on my bed side light, got it and gave it to her and I lay face down in my boxers on the bed.  She whipped me about ten time.  Cripes it hurt.  Then she started to just stroke my legs and back with it.  I real mix of the punishment with teasing.  Then a few more unexpectedly.  Then she finished.

I put the chord back in the bed side table draw.  We hugged and kissed.  I thanked her.

We lay back.  Hand in hand.  It was nice.  It was not long before I could tell she was asleep. Regular breathing.  I though was wide awake.  Mind alert.  I am conscious that I have a tendency to get moody.  many times I have gotten sulky because she falls asleep in bed.  So I am having to mentally put myself in a place to avoid that.

I ponder that the whipping was like both a punishment and a reward.  It hurt and it was in the context of having gotten moody and being punished for it but also I find that the pain helps to clear my mind.  I know it is not politically correct but it does.  Its almost like an aspirin or a coffee in waking me up and clearing the mind.  Or even exercise.

I then thought a scary thought.  I would like her to tie me face down to the bed.  I would like her to whip me really really hard.  I want it to be so hard that I scream.  I want her to not stop whipping me when I scream.  Weird hey.  I know that when it is happening I will be regretting it.  I will be wondering why I was so stupid to ask for it.  I will be wishing it to be over.  I know it will hurt and hurt a lot.  But still that is something I dream or fantasise about.  Weird hey.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

sub music

I had a previous post here listing vanilla songs that to me have some kinky or submissive side to them.

Heard this song on the radio

The Real Thing - You To Me Are Everything (Lyrics)

With lines like this in it

I would take the stars out of the sky for you
Stop the rain from falling if you asked me to.
I'd do anything for you
your wish is my command
I could move a mountain when your hand is in my hand.
Words cannot express how much you mean to me.
You know you've got the power girl
To keep me holding on.

maybe we are back on

Should that read .... back down under...

Dropped in at home for a quick bite of lunch.

Ended up in the bed room.

First on my tummy and a dozen strokes of the cane.  Wow.

Then gently rubbed her.  Took her skirt & pants off.  Worked gently as per request.  Eventually she orgasmed and a pretty intense one from what I could tell / feel.

I asked if I could cum and she reiterated "no".


Monday, November 18, 2013

"No" sounds so good

Last night we were in bed together and in retrospect she was giving direction a bit more than usual.  She said she was going to roll onto her tummy so I could stroke her back.  At one stage she said to touch gently on the back of her legs and bottom.  She got turned on and I moved my hand inside her undies.  She came with me rubbing her with my fingers. 

Then we lay cuddled.  I was wondering where this would lead.  Then she started to drift off to sleep.  Now if we were in a overtly fem dom male sub mode then I would be very happy with that but we have been in a malaise for a while.  I could feel myself getting angry or at least annoyed.  When she gets like this I just think she is being lazy when it comes to the relationship or at least the intimate sexual part of it. 

Luckily after a while she awoke and the physical touching started again and she said "take you pants off".  She started to suck me.  very very stimulating.  Then she took her panties off and got on top.   I was getting in a sub headspace and she tried to push on but she was too dry.  Then she got some lube and put it on and rubbed me.  Long and slow.  Oh so turned on.  Then she got on top again and pushed on.  She started to move and it soon became clear that she was stimulated.  There is a difference in the rhythm or something.  So she was moving and on top and I was turned on and mildly at least in a sub head space.  I then asked if I could come.  I fully expected her to say that we should come together.  She surprised me by saying you just came a few days ago I am sure you can wait a bit longer.

I almost shot my load in surprise.

"How long are you going to wait" I enquired.

"do you think you can wait until ..... (weekend away planned for about 3 weeks time)..."
"wow that would be so hot" I said too quickly.
then I rabbited on saying she could whip me and so on.  Not sure if that was a good thing or too much of an over reaction.  I also mentioned how much I had enjoyed my last period of abstinence back at the start of the year and how turned on I had got reading the forum where the catholic (I think) wives were discussing helping their husbands deal with extended periods of abstinence and I mean here these people only have sex when they want to conceive and so the men have to go years without orgasm. 

On that, the up side for the guy was increased and deliberate intimacy by the wives.

so we wait and see how we go over the next week or so.