Thursday, December 9, 2010
It is now two and a half weeks or so since I last came.
My balls ache
I am hard a lot.
I am thinking of her a lot
I want sex
I have not had a wet dream.
When I was a teen, I had wet dreams about once a week maybe more. It was a real struggle. Sometimes not only my pyjama pants were wet and sticky but it would shoot right up onto my chest and my pyjama top would also be wet and sticky.
I had a nice discussion with her last night about teasing and she said that she does not want to tease because it is nasty. Now I know she is not a nasty and not a vindictive person so the thing is how do I convince her that teasing me is not nasty.
She said that everything she is doing is because it is what I want. Making me abstain, eventually giving me permission to cum, whipping me especially.
I said that I wished that I could find a way where she could at least be a little selfish. She said that's not her.
Problem is it is her she does not realise it. She does a lot of things that make me jealous. Things that I see as selfish. he infernal busyness for starters. He always being late when she knows that being on time is something I value.
I note that subservient-husband had the wheels fall off the relationship but the next post shows that they are back on. Which is great for him and his wife.
It made me wonder whether women want what they want but do not understand the impact that they are actually having?
Like it seems that many women are very controlling but would deny it even to themselves.
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