Wednesday, December 8, 2010
I am feeling down.
My balls ache. I have not had sex for 2 1/2 weeks.
Last night my wife got into bed and said sorry I haven't read your blog for a few days. She laughed and said "I got the laundry folded". (Not this blog but the one I have specially for her).
She then asked if I would like to talk and I had not much to say. Usually I want to discuss being submissive. I want sex.
So I feel less valued than the laundry.
Then I come here to write about my feelings and I see that there are about 600 hits to my blog but not one comment and even if I go back a few days. Only two people - subservient husband and Weave. So I feel sort of pointless.
I started off telling her that I only wanted sex when she wanted it but I can't excite her. I just don't know what to do. My head space is entering a dangerous place and that is starting to wish she would just give me relief. If it is such a sacrifice for her to let me inside her then at least her giving me that is showing me some value.
at 5:00 AM