When she got home I asked how she was. She said that she had asked the choir to give her a "sound immersion" whatever that is.
I said I am so sorry that I yelled at her on the phone.
I said to her "you know what we have to do"
She does not like hitting me.
Anyway she went and did a couple of things. I changed into my boxers and got out the electrical chord and put it on the bed beside me. Then I lay face down on the bed. I actually felt sick. I was so anoyed with myself for shouting at her.
She entered the room and just picked up the chord and without saying anything she brought it down hard on by bottom. After the second stroke, I bit into the pillow. It hurt. I wanted it to hurt. I did not want to cry out because I knew that right now that would cause her to stop and I need her to not only punish me but to gain confidence. I buried my face in the pillow and tried to withstand the pain as each stroke landed on my bottom.
Then she stopped and put the chord in the draw and walked out.
She went into her office and did some work on her computer.
After a time I went in and stood behind her and massaged her. I said that my punishment was not about the chocolate it was about shouting at her. I said I am sure I could have found a way to in mature way express my concern about chocolate in the house without resorting to shouting at her down the phone.
I know I am not getting sex tonight. Even I can see the atmosphere is not right.
I must be mad.